Can't Believe....

I can't believe this is me
I touch you but not feel you.

I can't believe this is me
I hear you but not understand you.

Why do my eyes close when you look into them?
Why do I remain silent when there's so much to clear?
So speechless, so dejected, so stigmatized;
Can't believe this is me
I want to know for what you loved me...

How could you say this is our home;
there is no love but only concrete boxes
How could you say you are beside me;
you always leave me in darkness
How could you say you love me;
every word pricks me relentlessly
Can't believe this is you
Who pretends to be glad and sober

I can't believe this is you
You chose to walk away like a coward.

I can't believe this you
You give excuses for not picking my calls.

Why do I have to remind you our special moments?
Why do you keep saying all those were our mistakes?
So stern, so inclement, so alienated
Can't believe this is you
You think I am disgrace now.

How can I still think we are together,
with all that we have gone through
How can I feel want you to come back;
it was me who showed you the door
Can't believe this is me
still weeping, wanting to see you...

Can't believe we are stuck between dream and reality
How could we be so wrong to believe one other?
Where is it, love? why can't we see our destiny?
What has happened to our strength now?
We can't see sunshine and snow
Still waiting for the call. Looking at the door,
Sorry for blaming for the things we couldn't do.
Why do we keep searching answers for unasked questions?

Can't believe this is the same me.

Can't believe this is the same you.

RJFS
Remin Saldanha